Beginner stuck with programming Java

Yes, keep at it.

Is it worth it I want to be an indie dev and I don't know if I should continue?

At this very moment, no, but it’s still too early to tell! :^)

Programming is an art and can more or less carry over to other languages; don’t worry about choosing the “right language” and just focus on learning the fundamentals with one. Read up on Peter Norvig’s Teach Yourself Programming in Ten Years, and reflect on where you are at now with Java.

Good luck!

Thank you. I just have motivational issues I've been programming for almost two years and I'm improving I just don't know what projects to start that could help me in my struggle.

I've been learning Java for almost 4 years before things "clicked". Start making a small game to learn what actually comes out of your code, it is much more understandable and less abstract when you actually see code doing something.