Samsara, a word I've been hearing a lot lately..

According to Wikipedia:

[quote]a [font="sans-serif"][size="2"]term which translates as "continuous movement" or "continuous flowing", which, in Buddhism, refers to the concept of a cycle of birth (j?ti), and consequent decay and death (jar?mara?a), in which all beings in the universe participate, and which can only be escaped through enlightenment.[/font][/quote]

This excerpt of Buddah's view of Samsara got me thinking (contrasting I'd say) for a while:


[quote]What do you think, monks: Which is greater, the tears you have shed while transmigrating and wandering this long, long time, crying and weeping from being joined with what is displeasing, being separated from what is pleasing or the water in the four great oceans?

This is the greater: the tears you have shed while transmigrating and wandering this long, long time, crying and weeping from being joined with what is displeasing, being separated from what is pleasing, not the water in the four great oceans.

Long have you repeatedly experienced the death of a father... the death of a brother... the death of a sister... the death of a son... the death of a daughter... loss with regard to relatives... loss with regard to wealth... loss with regard to disease. The tears you have shed over loss with regard to disease while transmigrating and wandering this long, long time, crying and weeping from being joined with what is displeasing, being separated from what is pleasing are greater than the water in the four great oceans.

Why is that? From an inconstruable beginning, a beginning point is not evident, so, beings hindered by ignorance and fettered by craving are transmigrating and wandering on. Long have you thus experienced stress, experienced pain, experienced loss, swelling the cemeteries enough to become disenchanted with all fabricated things, enough to become dispassionate. Enough to be released.[/quote]


How many times I've been (and still I am) wandering around (hindered by ignorance and fettered by craving) looking up for things that could give my life a meaning or at least provide me with some perdurable happiness, finding them and then losing them in the hands of tragedy or the unstoppable flow of time just to start over looking up for them again or remaining in total despair for having losing them.

I understand now (of course not completely, but certainly more than some time before), that becoming "disenchanted" and "dispassionate" doesn't mean becoming oblivious and uninterested but to start comprehending how everything is temporary and circumstantial and that I do not need to remain tied to these "fabricated things" in order to be in peace. That being released from the things of life doesn't mean being released from being alive or being able to contemplate what's good. That abandoning the perpetual motion of Samsara doesn't mean to stop moving towards one's own end with joy. Whatever that may be...

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With some luck I'll be writing about the progress on this game I'm making before Sunday. I just need to stop thinking about these things and start coding that freaking AABB code to partition the level stuff.


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