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A public service announcement from AnonymousPosterChild

Started by AnonymousPosterChild Oct 2, 2006 at 5:56 PM 63 replies 9.4k views
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AnonymousPosterChild
AnonymousPosterChild
Well, after years of ragging on people for making personal posts on gamedev, I guess its my turn to take the heat. This is a big post, and will probably change a bit, or maybe nothing at all. I don't know, I just know its a really big deal for me and the people around me. I'm going to be making similar posts on the other online communities I frequent. Anyways, here goes. Probably, since puberty at least, I've felt a sort of disgust towards my body. Not the "I'm too fat" or such that comes along with it, but rather the fact that I've never felt comfortable in a male body. Its not even not feeling comfortable, but almost a disgust or rejection for the form itself. For the longest time, (see my entire high school career), I supressed this and told myself that it was wrong, and that I shouldn't think like that, ever. Purely by accident I managed to stumble upon a site that actually dealt with these issues and was able to explain them. From this, I was able to learn that I was not the only person who felt this way. This alone was able to help me a good deal, but the majority of the progress I've made in being able to deal with this myself I owe to some of the online and local communities I've been able to find that deal with this. Anyways, I should point out that this is not something I have come to lightly. Even beginning to comprehend this took a lot of introspection and careful thought over the last few months. Right now I'm trying to seek out relevant counselling, although the only thing close to local that handles this sort of thing seems to be CAMH, and I've heard a lot of horror stories about the place from people who went there, so I'm a bit apprehensive. Also, I think that its only fair that since I've chosen to make fun of your personal problems that, if you see anything about this that you can take amusement from at my expense, that you feel free to act on it. I can take it, and humour is typically my way of dealing with complex issues anyways. --APPENDED INFORMATION-- I am not sexually attracted to men. [Edited by - AnonymousPosterChild on October 4, 2006 1:38:55 PM]
With love, AnonymousPosterChild
SticksandStones
SticksandStones
If this is a troll post, then it is very well done.

If it isn't, then...uh...good for you! Glad you're getting help for your...uh...issues. Good luck with your counselling.
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DakeDesu
DakeDesu
Good luck to you APC.

Now, I am just wonder what those issues are, and if they are similar to mine. Like I didn't get much from your post, I could assume somethings, or I could assume it is self esteem issues. But hey, it took a lot of guts to open up.

I, perhaps, am not nearly as open (Instead I simply convinced everybody here that I was female without ever saying I actually was female. Which is quite the feat, if you think about it).

Anyways, if this is what I think it is, which it could be quite a few things, there have been numerous other people on this site with similar issues.

You go girl.
Run_The_Shadows
Run_The_Shadows
Sadly, you're past the age where gender reassignment provides relatively stunning and unnoticable results. However, I'm sure the doctors can still do a good job since you're still not /too/ old, relatively.
capn_midnight
capn_midnight
okay, we need you to post saying "this isn't a hoax, on threat of bannination" before we will believe you, and we need a mod to pledge that he or she will ban your ass if you make the pledge and it still turns out to be a hoax.
IFooBar
IFooBar
Quote:
Original post by AnonymousPosterChild
Also, I think that its only fair that since I've chosen to make fun of your personal problems that, if you see anything about this that you can take amusement from at my expense, that you feel free to act on it. I can take it, and humour is typically my way of dealing with complex issues anyways.


Way to take the fun out of it [razz]
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capn_midnight
capn_midnight
Quote:
Original post by ApochPiQ
If I had three nuts, I'd feel pretty bad about the male form, too.

it's called postpartum depression
AnonymousPosterChild
AnonymousPosterChild
Quote:
Original post by capn_midnight
okay, we need you to post saying "this isn't a hoax, on threat of bannination" before we will believe you, and we need a mod to pledge that he or she will ban your ass if you make the pledge and it still turns out to be a hoax.


I already told ravuya about this post before I made it and told him to tell the other mods in case such a belief came up. This is not a troll and it is truth.

Quote:

If I had three nuts, I'd feel pretty bad about the male form, too.


Thats the spirit!
With love, AnonymousPosterChild
Run_The_Shadows
Run_The_Shadows
Quote:
Original post by AnonymousPosterChild
I already told ravuya about this post before I made it and told him to tell the other mods in case such a belief came up. This is not a troll and it is truth.


I'm assured this is an honest post by both APC and rav, so everyone from here on out please refrain from questioning the credibility of APC's post.
Salsa
Salsa
Someone else made a topic about this in the past, but I don't think it was DakeDesu? Someone that was seriously contemplating going under the knife for a gender change? I can't really remember, and I'm too lazy to search for it, but it's there. It will probably help you.
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SticksandStones
SticksandStones
Quote:
Original post by Salsa
Someone else made a topic about this in the past, but I don't think it was DakeDesu? Someone that was seriously contemplating going under the knife for a gender change? I can't really remember, and I'm too lazy to search for it, but it's there. It will probably help you.


Yeah, I remember that thread too. I can't think of who it was though.
hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- the fear of big words
Tiffany_Smith
Tiffany_Smith
Why do you feel you need to announce it online? Do you think it will change peoples opinion of you? What if it does? Does that matter? Do you want people to change your mind? Are you telling everyone so that you can feel the relief of knowing nobody will shun you for it? Or do you feel that you can help others with the same feelings by speaking out?

I'm curious, what is it?
ViLiO
ViLiO
Quote:
Original post by SticksandStones
Quote:
Original post by Salsa
Someone else made a topic about this in the past, but I don't think it was DakeDesu? Someone that was seriously contemplating going under the knife for a gender change? I can't really remember, and I'm too lazy to search for it, but it's there. It will probably help you.


Yeah, I remember that thread too. I can't think of who it was though.

I think it was this "dude" [wink]
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DakeDesu
DakeDesu
Yeah, me it was never an actual coming out thread. It was more flame wars with one side saying Iam male, and another side saying I am female. This with plenty of people trying to find out "my secret".

However, there have been plenty of other people on this site who are transgender or transsexual. I can think of atleast one that helped me come to terms with myself.

As per coming out, and why people do it, I found when I came out it was mostly I had been storing it inside for so long, that unless I made everybody aware I was really female and not male, despite biological discrepancies, I would explode.

APC appears to be a late bloomer. Heck I figured myself out at the age of six or seven, and I am considered a late bloomer.

Anyways, lots of luck,
DakeDesu
DakeDesu
DakeDesu
Quote:
Original post by eedok
There's only one way to solve this:

You must install Linux on yourself, most preferably Ubuntu Christian Edition. It's the only way to purify yourself.


I don't think anything running Ubuntu is pure. If you said Debian or SuSe I might agree... but not Ubuntu.

However, the problem is clearly he is running Internet Explorer. He should be using Firefox.
thundergunslinger
thundergunslinger
How much of this crap starts out as cybering as a female and goes downhill from there? Or a Raccoon, or a Dragon, or Sonic the Hedgehog?

I always thought APC's reactions to the bedlam in the lounge was a normal, healthy response. I guess he's just a sick freak like everyone else.

I feel betrayed, I'm going to cut myself now.
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thundergunslinger
thundergunslinger
I know, Knuckie-baby, I know. Reality is too harsh for our pure love triangle, so reality is void. Reality is also to too stupid to believe I might actually have been Sonic the Hedgehog in a previous life.

All these "normal" people are just Dr. Robotnik's slaves. I just get so sad sometimes.

Edit: More like Dr. ROBU$HNIK. Think about it, dude.

PS--2 questions:

Does anyone know of support group websites on the interwebs for incarnations of video game characters?

Can someone make an MMORPG where I can marry Tails and Knuckles? If I can't be Sonic, because those ROBU$HNIK lawyer Nazis say no, I think I'm also a sexy raccoon.
all around the world today, a kilo is a measure;a kilo is 1000 grams, easy to remember

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